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Friday, 02 October 2009

college

College has been so weird, but yet its fun being on the football team. My goal is to break a tackle in practice and in a game. I remember the 1st time i stepped on campus, I was scared out of my pants. All the guys looked at me, they probably thought I was crazy. I met so many good looking guys but they obviously like to play around with girls. They talk about having sex with a girl and how sluty some one is or someone has a bigger butt. It sux to hear them talk about other females and make fun of them. What also sux is that you hear them talk about who is cheating on who with someone. If I told them, they wouldn't believe me if I told them that their bf/gf was cheating on them, when I just happened to get pulled into the conversation and witnessed it. Pretty messed up.... oh well.

It so strange that alot of guys are flirting with me. They tell me that I have a nice body and very attractive. They must be looking at some other girls like the track, soccer, or chearleaders.....It wasn't like that in high school, I think I'll admit that I was kinda anti social, but not only that, I didnt have alot of ppl to talk to or be around with. I'm glad I still keep in touch with alot of my friends in high school.

I'm not tryna talk so much crap, just expressing what is running around my mind alot. My team is very sweet to me, they invite me to places as teammates. During practice we'ed always have a good time. Its hard to cry if I was having a terrible day, cuz theres always someone to cheer me up no matter what.

I guess college is compleatly different then high school, but yet I still have responsibilities.

can anyone read this?

Monday, 02 October 2006

now that i'm in irvington, everything seems too different. i'm still an outsider and people treat me like shit. i dont get why i'm in speacial ed. in class the teacher said it ment emotional dissorder. i miss kennedy so bad. at the same time i'm a littel glad that i'm out of there cause i just can't stad seeing angel and him hurting. i'm stiil the same as usual and nothings ever changed. i can't get into football cause i'm a girl. if i went back to kennedy, i'd still have me spot for wide reciever. i dont really like irvington. i like the speacial ed and all but the rest is just so negative. i feel so alone that i'm missing someone i thought that was speacial..

Sunday, 09 July 2006

i'm happy!!! great things happened!!! i have friends!!!! i have family that cares for me!!! i'm happy!!! jeeeeez!!!!

Monday, 19 June 2006

i've knowticed that no one uses their xangas anymore. damn myspace!!! but oh well, at least ppl are still keepin touch.

Saturday, 19 November 2005

theres some mistake . . . i cant be in varsity, i'm too light for a wrestler . . . ppl are saying i'm in varsity and the chart says it too . . . . this is a mistake . . . . i hope the coach knows that. . . but if i really am than. . . woooooow . .i'm only a freshman though. . . ehhh its cool.